Psi Vampirism And “Lost Girl”

Greetings!

I recently watched a new show on Sci-Fi called “Lost Girl”.
I was intrigued by the previews and decided to check it out
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The show is about a girl that finds out she is Fae (an ancient race of beings some more commonly think of as Faeries …though it relates to many types).  and she finds out she is  specifically a succubus.
Her Fae parents left her with a human couple to raise her. They allude to them doing this in order protect her from something in their own realm .

The girl is awakening to who she is and what she is. Needless to say, she is a bit overwhelmed and reaches out looking for someone she can trust.

I was amazed to see how they  depict her feeding on energy. They show it as a blue white light she pulls in with her touch and her breath….she draws in their lifeforce.
The character will feed  from fae and human alike, man or woman.It does not make a.difference to her hunger. The fact that she uses the term “feed” and “hunger” surprised me as well.

Another interesting detail is that she can only heal or function if she feeds on energy. Of course she heals almost instantly.*smiles* I have found this very same phenomena in my own life. If I feed…. my healing speeds up versus not. If I become low.. I dont heal as quickly and my immune system becomes compromised,very quickly.

Which leads me to the question of who wrote the story line and what type of research they did. *grins*

I am curious …how much is based on original myth about succubi or how much is based on todays Psi vampires.
The succubi of old are painted in a very different light than the character on this show so it makes me think they have adapted the traits from more modern versions and myths.

I am both, nervous about this new show and excited.  I do not know if it will prove an asset or a liability regarding the way psi vampirism is viewed. Only time will tell.

The good news is that the main character is  being portrayed as someone learning to face her fears and discovering her shadow side.. She is not perfect and has made her mistakes but, seems to be trying to control her darker urges and find that elusive balance. Being able to accept who she is and find ways to cope and use it in positive ways.  

The show also, is addressing the use of donors. The character seems to have found an ally in the Fae through a man who  understands what she is and accepts her fully. He  seems to genuinly care about her.  I am hoping they develop the idea of donors more.

The character also, has a human friend whom she has entrusted with her secrets  and the human seems to be a sort of guide or protector in some ways.  Another ally that is able to look past her own  natural fear and self-preservation and find a trusted friend in the succubus.

I look forward to future episodes and hope that the writers are able to cultivate compassion and understanding within the storyline. Maybe, it will help people to see past a persons differences and allow positive communication to begin.

I will keep you posted if any further points of interest come to light.

Sweet dreams,
Angel

Seeing Energy Vamps In A New Way

Salutations!

I decided to write about something that has bothered me for a very long time. I promise to try and keep my whining to a minimum. *smiles*

This is for all the websites,books and articles devoted to demonizing psi vampires or anyone that judges people or lifestyles based on assumptions or stereotypes.

There was a time when there was very little information available regarding real vamps of any kind. Psychic vamps even less.  The little bit that was out there was before anyone really understood what a psychic vampire was. 
I can undestand how some of the very early authors may have seen this unknown type of person or condition as dangerous. Back then the general populace had very limited information regarding energy and the views were very mixed. The new age movement was reving up and the so-called experts came out and created the anti energy-vamp bandwagon.

Today, I am happy to say…there are many web-sites, articles, books, blog’s and YouTube videos ..oh my!…(sorry. could not resist the Wizard of Oz moment.*smiles*)   that are devoted to psi vampirism and are now available for general consumption.  They may not be perfect or always accurate but, they at least offer a more informative and reality driven profile of what and who we are. A nice change from the outdated and incorrect assumptions that were so prevalent back in the day.

I wish I could say the old views and opinions were gone but, sadly ..that is not the case. Even recent articles still  misunderstand us. Some circles still think of energy vamps as vile and demonic creatures or at the very least, we are seen as leeches or parasitic damaged souls that need to be cured or “saved”.

On a side note….
I must point out that even leeches have their positive aspects. Their saliva is used as a blood thinner for heart patients. Leeches are being  used to drain excess blood from injury and surgery sites..reducing swelling and complications. These are just few examples of how something believed to be negative  by so many, can turn out to be beneficial and positive.

We psi vampires have our own ways of giving back and doing good, its just a matter of accepting us as part of the natural balance and to not judge us all based on a few misguided individuals or intolerant views.

Just like any other groups of people….. we have many differing opinions and ideas, even amongst ourselves. Some of us choose to live life in our own way,not letting current trends define who or what we are.  Every vamp out there will have differing lifestyles and may or may not be open about their vamparism. Many of us fear negative attitudes or reactions and choose to keep that part of us hidden. Its hard to change long standing opinions even if they are not based on truth.

I often wonder why so many people cling to the old assumptions?  Is it because they do not want to believe other perspectives ….for fear of losing their hardcore beliefs that we all are “out to get them?”  Perhaps, it is fear of the unknown that makes them unable to accept a new way of seeing us?  I honestly don’t know.

I think that most of the  fear is based on mostly not understanding something.  Then add in any religious views or beliefs  regarding  energy or anything related to the word vampire and you can see the potential for intolerance and hatred.  I personally, have run into this mindset as a healer and psychic way before I was awakened to my own psi vampirism.

Another myth is that we all like to stir up emotional drama in order to feed .
It’s not to say we can’t feed on these emotions or that no psi has ever done this sort of thing …there will always be people who prey on other people and there are times when our unique talents come in handy or we may accidently draw from those around us if newly awakened.
If we happen to find ourselves thrust into an emotional or chaotic situation..then we may feed off of the excess energy which, in turn can help defuse or calm the situation itself.  For a psi to intentionally stir up emotions to feed does not really make sense. Here are some basic underlying reasons .Good or bad intentions aside.
A lot of psi’s tend to be empathic and strong emotions will feel amplified and overwhelming in a very short time.
To purposely create drama in order to feed is counterproductive. It takes a lot of psychic energy to be a catalyst and change the emotions of others……This is assuming the vamp even has this ability …not all do.  ….and to expend a large amount of reserve energy in an effort to create the very same substance we need is not logical.
Why needlessly use so much for such a small payoff?
 
I can feed from a donor with minimum effort and have a much more substantial amount and quality of energy. I don’t have to deal with the negative consequences of having to process all the overwhelming emotions or deal with the chaotic feelings as a result.

Another annoying stereotype is that we drain anyone that we set our sights on. That we have no disregard for who we feed from and take from any unsuspecting person we decide to prey on. 
I take only from my donors and never without permission and only ambient and surface energy from crowds. I have found that ambient energy is not sustaining for me and It can take the edge off but, just does not compare to feeding from a person directly.  *smiles*   One thing I want to mention is regarding newly awakened or vamps that are very low may auto feed. 
Auto feed is when a vamps system reaches out to energy sources without our concious awareness.  It has happened to all of us at one time or another. I cannot say that I have never accidentally fed from someone.  Once I became aware of this automatic response I began working on it quite a bit. . Now, if I do auto feed..its from my donors and once I am aware of it.. I can stop it. I do not drain my donors either. I take only what they want to give. I will even stop before they ask me…..if I sense they are getting too low. I seek to create a balance in taking and giving energy and do not take kindly to being called a leech or that I am something that people need to be protected from. I truly believe that the negative views of vamps have stemmed mostly from our unawakened or misguided newbies. I think that the incidence of this happening should continue to improve and occur less since there is so much info out there and support. More people have heard of psi vampirism and may recognize the signs and understand how to cope with it better.  Back to my whining. *smiles*

Another one of my favorite images Is that we are all these dark gothic  brooding types.
I am soooooo not the brooding type but, I do have a fondness for goth and I smile often and love to laugh. I know..shocking! *grins*

The other  misguided opinion is that all psi vamps have a choice. I would love to be able to change the way my energy system functions.  I did not choose to have an energy deficiency or an immune system that crashes if I do not take in energy. To not have to deal with all the complications that come with this deficiency would be a blessing.
I do not choose this life. It is just a fact of who I am. Not better..not worse..just me. In the beginning, It was hard to accept in many ways. yet, was  freeing when I understood why I was so sick all the time and other bizarre symptoms.  To know why I am the way I am was the best thing to happen to me. The answers were finally within my grasp and my life felt more in my control.

I am still learning and like everyone else, just want to find my place in this world and live it in the best way I can. I dont know all the answers but, I will continue to search and share my thoughts and feelings in hopes of helping even just a few people.

I hope this gives someone,who previously agreed with the myths, something to think about and helps you to see psi vamps in a different light.

May all who are born different or choose to live life in an extraordinary way, find peace with who you are and find people who will accept and love you for who you are .

Sweet Dreams,
Angel

Crystal Skulls and Serpent Mound

Greetings,

I went to a place called Serpent Mound in Adams County, Ohio.  This trip was at the end of October.

http://www.greatserpentmound.com/

I was invited to drive with a friend and be a part of a gathering of sorts.
The gathering was to help bring in the end of the Mayan Calendar and to help activate the Earths energy grid and power centers. 
These changes are being ushered in by the crystal skulls throughout the world and Mayan priests were doing a ceremony that day and brought their own ancient skull.

The Mitchell-Hedges skull was found in a Mayan ruin. It seems proper that skulls are a part of 2012.
Here is a link to an interesting reconstruction of what the face of the skull would look like.
http://www.v-j-enterprises.com/csface.html

Here is some information regarding the Mitchell-Hedges skull.
http://projectcamelot.org/crystal_skull_analysis.html

There were speakers earlier in the day and one was a scientist who has written books regarding the mound. The other was a shaman and he spoke about the importance of this changing time and the role he feels the skulls are playing.  I found both speakers to be fascinating and the info. they provided helped to shed light on these mysterious topics.

A bit later there was a ceremony.
The elder Mayan Priest led the ceremony.
We all followed in a slow procession around the entire serpent mound. The skulls were held by their caretakers and they followed with the Mayan group leading the procession.
I sadly did not get to see the Mayan skull myself due to the crowds but, was able to not only see but, connect with the other two very  impressive skulls.

As a psi vampire I tend to connect with the energy of things and base my feelings on what I percieve in an energetic sense. Here is my experience with one of the main skulls.

I am going to jump ahead to the next gathering following the walk around the mound. *no pun intended…ahead….Grins*

At one point two of the skulls were set on cloths on the grass covered ground …not very far from the mound.
There the crowd gathered and the drumming began. The drumming was accompanied by a single file line of people dancing around them. It reminded me of the opening ceremony of Native American pow wows .
There was a slow steady drumming that accompanied the procession.  As people moved in a single file ..they would weave in and around the skulls on the ground.  I could feel the energetic charge in the air. Almost a humming or low vibration.
I was standing along the outer edge of this area. Watching the people dancing and paying homage to the skulls as they slowly moved past.

Once the ceremonial procession was completed…the slow drumming continued and people were able to gather around the two skulls and physically connect and pay their respects . I watched all of this,waiting for the right time to approach the one nearest to me. I was not even sure if I would get the chance. I would catch glimpses of this fairly clear and impressive piece of crystal as people would move away and others would take their place.

I decided to reach out with my energy to this one….wanting to connect and get a feel for the type of energy it may give off.  As soon as I sent my senses out …I felt it’s energy reach out to mine . It was as though it recognized my attempt at making contact and met me halfway and in a way that seemed quite sentient and as curious about me as I was of it. *grins*  I sent out my respect and love and opened my heart to this benevolent being.  curious as to what I may find.

On a side note.
I was not completely surprised by this due to my encounter with the Mitchell-Hedges skull back in the early 90s. I was able to stand within arms length of this beautiful and mysterious piece of history. I had a strong sense of an actual sentient being when I looked into the empty eye sockets. Just like then…this skull also, felt like it was looking back. That it carried thoughts and emotions and was very much aware. Not just an inanimate object.

Back to my attempt at getting close to this amazing skull.

I Hung back about twenty feet and felt as though the skull would arrange the meeting in some way. I’m not sure why I thought that and figured I would trust my instincts.
The throng of people did not let up but, It was wonderful to see such love and respect for these sacred objects. 

I continued to observe and then I felt a distinct shift of energy emanating from the skull near me. It was then..that I knew I was being invited to come closer.  I began to slowly walk towards it. As I did…I had this strange sensation of being almost exclusively aware of the skull and nothing else, feeling very drawn towards it. As I move closer…I notice the ring of people  begin to stand and walk off or back away. The skull is left completely alone. I am amazed at this clearing being created just as I walk up. I am able to crouch down directly next to this skull and with what feels like permission to touch it….I reach down and gently hold my hand a few inches above then I slowly lower my hand down and touch the top of it. 

I was not sure what to expect. As I touched it…I wish I could say there was an electrical arc or some other amazing reaction but, it was nothing like that. What I felt was still very poweful but, at a very subtle and not very dramatic level. I honestly cant explain what I felt. It was a multilayered experience.
I could feel changes in my energy and could sense what seemed like an exchange and a sort of deep communication. I then felt what can only be described as a happy and peaceful feeling from the skull…..as though it was happy with the exchange. This feeling lasted only a few minutes. Which is great since I cannot crouch for very long..knees groan and whine about crouching.*grins*
I stood up ….and before I could barely take a step back…the next phase of people began to move back in. 
I returned to my earlier place at the outer edge of the gathering. I truly could not believe that I was given the chance to connect without having to compete with the other people. I felt truly honored and gave thanks  for our communication and the personal invite.
I have no clue as to why it worked out the way it did but, I am very glad it did. I feel like I was somehow changed at a very deep yet still unknown level.

The other skull, being a large one like the first …did not have the same reaction. I felt we connected but, nothing like the first one.

I am not sure what their roles are on this planet or with what I feel are the coming changes for man. I just know that they are here to help us in ways we may never fully understand.

I truly believe that this upcoming time for all who call Earth and beyond..is going to bring big changes. That somehow everything we know and think we understand will evolve and change and new knowledge and philosophies will begin to take root.  Everything changes and evolves ,nothing stays the same.
I am excited and curious about what the future holds.
The next phase of discovery and enlightenment is coming. I look forward to being a part of it. Even if I am not sure exactly how or when that may come about. *smiles*

Sweet dreams,
Angel

Wizards, Witches and Muggles

Greetings,

I recently spent a week on a family vacation, touring Disney and Universal Studios in Orlando Florida. Had a great time.

I have to mention one thing.

Anyone who is a fan of Harry Potter will love the theme park at Universal. It is amazing and was created for all ages.
It was the highlight of our trip and by far, the most magical and wonderful experience that far exceeded my expectations.  I am looking forward to going back.*smiles*
No spoilers. *grins*

Our next favorite part of the experience at the Harry Potter theme park was the  “Butterbeer”.  Yummmmmm!  
It was the best beverage we had the whole trip.
We could order it frozen or non . We only had it the frozen way each time so I cant really advise on the other.
The drink has no alcohol in it, unlike in the HP stories,but it was a great adaptation of this fictional drink.  Plus, in the Florida heat it was a welcome break.
I need to mention that all the buildings and even the lines leading into the traditional open air coasters ..(part of the lines were indoors)  were air conditioned.

Honeydukes is a candy shop from the stories that is also, brought to life at the park.  This store sold pumpkin juice and other candies fans will recognize. To my delight this also, included chocolate frogs which included the collector card depicting a famous witch or wizard. *smiles*

The amazing architecture and reproduction of the smallest details of the Harry Potters world was amazing.  You truly feel as though you have stepped into another realm.

The rides were amazing and I highly recommend the main theme ride. It is a ride that creates a multidimensional experience. It is not just physical movement but, visual. It really allows one to feel what the characters must feel when flying on their broomsticks.  Even my husband, who is not the biggest HP fan and hates rollercoasters…went on it twice ( he even kept his eyes open ….the second time we rode it..*grins*) . I still cannot get him on the other rides which are more traditional rollercoaster ..but, im working on it.*smiles*

I hope you have enjoyed this peek into my Harry Potter theme park experience and find yourself someday going there as well.
I know this post is a change from my usual topics…to say the least …so thank your for obliging me.*smiles*

There is so much that I did not talk about for fear of spoiling the surprises. If you go please, drop me a line and let me know how you liked it.

Sweet dreams,
Angel

Feeding And The Primal Nature Within Us All

Greetings,

This is an attempt on my part to give voice to my inner thoughts and what I experience when I feed. I have been asked this before and thought I would touch on this topic again.
Enjoy.*smiles*

My eyes follow your every move. I sense you with all my being. Lights flicker as my hunger increases. My energy creates a maelstrom around me in preparation of the feed. Your energy calls to me. I can think of only you. Your life force flowing into me, filling the need within me. I reach out with my being and touch upon your aura. Sensing it is full and overflowing.   I can feel my hunger rise and the predator within me awakens ,reveling in the hunt. Energy is freely given yet I want nothing more than to take and to devour. The room draws within itself as my focus grows in its intensity.  I feel my heartbeat increase and the sensation of astral incisors extending in anticipation. The primal side coming forward and reviving  ancient impulses within. My energy rises to seek out its target.  I push my tendrils deep into your body seeking out the core of your energy. Electrical pulses and heat grows within me.  I sense your need to be devoured. To be drawn out of your body. To let go of who you are and to be taken over by what I am. To allow the predator to meet its prey.  The need becomes a driving force that creates tension from deep within. A tightening and a clenching that finds release only when the hunt has played out and the prey is consumed. Life force beckons. Embracing both of us within its grip. Feeling less than human but, also experiencing the fragility of life and how weak its hold can be. Moving towards health and strength within these moments. Seeking out balance yet, unable to hold onto it once it is found. Grasping it and feeling it move through my body as it revives and renews. The inevitable decline even as the hunger is satiated and the slow and steady emptying begins to occur. Knowing it is never enough. The continuous need rises from within looking for brief respite. Hunger grows and the inner beast rises in response. Seeking out sources to fill a ravenous hunger. The beast does not see boundaries or right from wrong only self preservation. The inner battle rages on. To feel human frailty while simultaneously experiencing the beasts strength creates an inner turmoil. Decline and renewal a constant flux. I feel your energy deep within and the beast moves back into the shadows. Always, watching and waiting. I slowly withdraw and feel my heart and pulse slowing. The deepest need is met and the rational mind takes over.  I withdraw and feel my body relax.

Freely given, it is a sacred gift and is cherished for not just the giving but, the heart and soul that is behind this act of pure trust. I recognize this rare trait and give respect and thanks. The act of feeding is profound and has many layers. To find a heart and mind, willing to give of themselves is truly a blessing. To keep the balance, give back and appreciate what is given. Take only what is offered. 

I want to thank my donors who accept both sides of my nature and have helped me to find positive aspects to my shadow side.To allow the freedom of exploring this part of who I am. To no longer fear or repress this integral part of who I am. I am empowered and made stronger. I am given the resources to help others and my health is restored. I give back to my donors when I am able in hopes of paying back the favor. Sometimes, it is in the form of healing work, other times in utilizing my psychic talents. Either way, I am glad to be able to give back. Friendship and love has grown out of these relationships and regardless of wether they remain my donors or not , we will always be in each others lives.

I wish you well on finding your balance and I hope this small insight into my inner world helps you make sense of your own. Do not fear the beast, it is a part of all of us. When it is brought out into the light, it has less power over us. It is when we deny who we are that we lose control. It is a sign of strength to face our shadows.

Sweet dreams,
Angel

A New Friends Personal Experiences With The Paranormal

Hello,

I was recently sent this email from my friend, Tim.
He has some amazing stories to share.
I am happy to share them with you. With his permission of course.*grins*

I have not edited or changed any of it. These are in his words and are the true accounts of his own ghostly encounters.

He has a blog on wordpress.  Please, check it out. *smiles 
Steeltee is the name of his blog on wordpress.

I did add my own comments at the end of each story. They are in quotes and signed by me..

Sweet Dreams,
Angel

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The (Supernatural?) World According to T.

Good morning.
I don’t pretend to know a lot about the intricacies of the mysteries of the afterlife or about other realms of existence. I don’t know if there are ghosts, poltergeists or other spirit manifestations – good or bad. I do know that over the course of my life I have witnessed some strange things that have defied rational explanation. </p
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A Little Drummer Boy </p

In the summer of 1970 I was on holiday, with my family, in Wales and we visited a large and well kept castle near the border with England. We were on one of those interminable guided tours where the only thing lazier than the weather was the guides drone. We were being shown along a passage just within the outer wall of the edifice and I was lagging behind somewhat. At one stage the group stopped just on the downside of a set of three stone steps. I, being imaginative and inquisitive, had hauled myself up onto the wide ledge of an arrow slit in the stone and I was pretending to fire arrows into a horde of charging pikemen, or some such thing.

When I next noticed the group they had moved quite some way along the corridor so I hopped down and scurried after them, one step, two steps, and third step and suddenly I was face down and spread full length along the corridor. The group turned and looked some nervous laughter but mostly just mouths hanging open.

I picked myself up and hurried on to join the group. I found out later that there was story associated with the castle wherein a drummer boy had been caught send illicit messages to the enemy and as punishment he had been sealed inside his drum and hung out on the wall until he had perished. The story was that his ghost occupied the spot just at the bottom of those three steps and tripped people as they came down them. Likely or not I will swear that I felt something hook my ankle as I launched from that bottom step and I am completely at a loss as to how I came to have a bruise across the front of that same ankle.

“I love the fact that this was from childood.  I know what it is like to experience strange events and have adults look at you as though your nuts. I am glad to hear it was seemingly taken as something more and possibly gave them something to think about.  I’m sure the adults present are still telling the story about the boy who they saw get tripped by a ghost.*grins*”
Angel

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Ouija Way <br /
Just about everybody has heard about Ouija boards, those strange board based communicators that are supposed to allow one to commune with the spirits. In my 17th year I was at a party, a rather large party, and as it drew around midnight or so someone produced “the board”. I watched with some interest but resisted the temptation to get involved; there was something that to me didn’t feel “right” here.

Anyway, amidst the general noise and chaos of the party a bunch of people started messing about with the board, then they sort of quieted down a bit. I noticed the lights seemed to be dimming but not flickering, more as though dark gauze had been draped over them. Quite suddenly all the doors to the room slammed shut. The temperature dropped around fifteen degrees or so. I felt “disoriented” and sick to my stomach. I turned and tried the door next to me, it was locked or jammed.
Over at the “scene” of the board somebody had slapped the glass from the hand that was touching it and suddenly the lights came back up, the chill lifted and, upon trying the door again, I found it opened easily.

So, what was with that? Too much smoke? Not everyone at once; too much alcohol? Not all drinkers? Mass delusion? What about the people outside the room that couldn’t get in?

Who knows but I do know one thing, unless you’re a bona fide expert don’t mess with the Ouija.

“This story reminded me of one of my earlier experiences with an Ouija board. I was young as well, and it was with two other friends. The experience was less than positive and was the cause for a few weeks of disturbing paranormal activity.  I understand the caution and agree. It is not a toy and should be treated as a very serious tool and by adults who understand it’s good and bad qualities.”
Angel

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A Morning Conversation
My Grandmother, may the Gods bless and keep her dear soul, was one of the kindest women I have ever known. She had, as do many other “gran’mas” a way of making everything seem alright. Just the tone of her voice, her kindly smile and her special hugs.

One morning in around 1992, just after my first wife had left, I woke up to find her sitting on the end of my bed, smiling. I said, “Hello Gran, how are you?” and that was the start of a conversation that lasted some ten minutes. I remember it vividly and in some detail. We talked about what was happening with me, what had befallen my marriage, we talked about being strong and about coping with things. I asked her to hang on a moment while I got a pen and paper to write down her address. Then I woke up. Standing up at the foot of the bed and fully dressed for work.

Sleepwalking or something more?

“This one is dear to my heart. My own Grandmother and I were very close and she died before I reached Twenty.  We have talked on more than one occasion since then.  It just shows how much our loved ones are still in our lives. We may not know they are around but, I can attest to their continued support and love. Even beloved pets have come for a vist in my life so I truly know the amazing connections we make. That even death does not diminish them so much as just change them.”
Angel

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OOBE

Between 1996 and 1998 I had a series of operations of a neurological nature to remove a destructive lesion (a type of aggressive tumour) from my left inner ear. The first op was a bit of a shocker, I wasn’t quite ready for the experience of having the side of my head laid open. All in all, though, it proceeded quite well and, the doctor’s thought, successfully.

Unfortunately it returned and once again I had to go in for surgical intervention. It was during the second procedure that I had a strange experience. At some point during the operation, toward the end of it, I “woke up” or at least that’s how it seemed. I woke up and suddenly lifted off the table and floated up to the ceiling. I managed to turn myself over and I looked down at me and there was a flurry of activity around the table.

I abruptly felt nervous, I felt as though something was behind me so with a little effort I rolled onto my back. The walls of the theater stretched out above me forming a rectangular “chimney” that seemed to go for a vast distance and at the top there was a deep darkness that looked “thick”, not just like an absence of light but like a blanket of something. I was feeling a pulling sensation, at my front, trying to draw me up the “chimney” formed by the walls.

At this point I became a little frightened and I fought the pull, I flailed from side to side and sought to grab onto something to stop me from going up. Then everything went black and very quiet.

I woke up in recovery, outside the theater, and one of the nurses was standing by my bed. She looked down, smiled and said, “You’re back with us eh? Gave us a bit of a start you did.”

I found out later that I had been revived on the table at one point, my partner at the time confirmed there had been a lot of rushing about and a “crash cart” involved.

Was I, just for a minute or so, a ghost or was it a simple Out Of Body Experience?

“I am so glad you came back.*smiles*
My Mom had a near death experience after having my brother.(he is three years older than me.) It was a difficult birth and there were complications. My Mother was haunted by her memories of the other side for many years before finding out she was not alone. She confided that it took her a long time to not feel an intense yearning to go back.  She is thankfully,  very content to wait until it is her time to once again make that journey. *smiles*
Angel

EMF Detector 101

Greetings,

I decided to do another 101 session for Ghost Investigation .*smiles*

I wanted to talk about another tool that we have all seen on some of the more popular ghost hunting shows.

The  EMF detector.
What the heck is it and how is it used in ghost hunting?

Let’s  start with the basics.

EMF stands for Electromagnetic Field.
There are many models and about as many ways to use them.
Some have multiple settings for adjusting the sensitivity and type of energy field it can detect. (Radio,microwave,electrical to name just a few.)
If you Google this device you will see both traditional and non traditional uses. The cost can range from as low as 10.00 USD to upwards of 200.00 + USD.

I found a great article regarding this item. It goes into more of the technical details. It also,has a paranormal focus as well.*smiles*  http://home.comcast.net/~parainvestigator/Articles/EMFbasices.html

Investigators are still discovering how to best utilize this meter and in a way that helps lend credibility to the field and to the data.  If we can show multiple tools picking up on the same event, it will help to prove the validity of our experiences.

Once you are the proud owner of one ..then it is time to actually figure out how to use it.*smiles*

Your own house can be a  great place to start.  Its a way to get a feel for how the meter reacts and how accurate.
I was amazed to discover the amount of EMF waves in my own home. Everyday household appliances and electrical wiring can give off very high amounts. I have to admit that it is a bit unsettling to find this out.

Once you feel comfortable with your detector then its just a matter of choosing the location.
I would suggest an enviroment where there is no power. No sources of electricity that can set off the meter. If you get spikes, then the odds are that it will be paranormal in nature.  
First thing you will need to  do when you arrive at your chosen site, is take a base reading. Even if there is no power at the location. It is always important to do this at every location no matter if you are told it has power or not.  Sometimes, there are other natural or man made reasons for getting spikes and you wont know for sure until you check it out with your meter.
This basic step will help to keep the mundane spikes and readings from being confused with any possible paranormal sources.

I would like to mention one of the most common theories as to why this type of meter detects paranormal activity.

If one accepts that all things are made up of energy then, like other energies (natural or otherwise) it should leave a residual imprint. What is a spirit if not energy? It would stand to reason that if a spirit is energy then it too should impact the surrounding enviroment .It is just a matter of figuring out the technology that can best detect these subtle signatures. 

Another practical tip I would like to share is to tag everything and record the entire investigation. I know it can be tedious listening to the entire investigation but, it really is worth it. 
It pays off when you are able to confirm the exact moment that an EVP is captured and find that the meter had spiked as well. I also, find that by tagging sounds heard during the investigation will save you time and frustration later when reviewing the recording.  It is annoying when a sound can’t be identified as mundane or not. If I  can’t identify the sound as paranormal with confidence, then I will not use it. When you know for sure that its a true EVP and to top it off you find a spike that coincides with it is a wonderful moment. It always gives me a warm happy feeling when I find validation from more than one source. I guess, I have been doing this for too long. *grins*

Some paranormal events will show a marked increase on the detector at the time they occur and if it is an EVP then you may not know you captured it until afterwards.  That is why tagging is a crucial part of the investigation.
Even if I hear something that I feel is  paranormal in nature, I will tag that as well.  I will say something like:  “I just heard a disembodied voice  while in the kitchen. ” You will be happy you did this when your wading through hours of review.*grins*

Each time we remember to do these basic steps the more it helps to better debunk or prove our experiences. Get in the habit of not just being there to observe but, also to try and collect the best evidence possible. Its easy to get caught up in the moment and forget to do these things . Trust me, we all have those moment.*grins*

My main goal, when I clear a home, is to not only to help spirits move on but, to empower the owners. I like to help them take their power back and to learn how to better cope and feel less fear. Its a matter of looking at things from a different perspective. Instead of coming from a fearful and powerless state. I show them how to operate from a compassionate and strong inner resolve.  I try to remove the negative ideas and expectations that Hollywood has created.
Believe me when I say, that is not an easy task.*grins*

Thanks to Documentaries -based on “true” stories” and a plethora of  scary movies , there is a culture of fear and helplessness when it comes to anything paranormal or unknown.  Most people who experience anything paranormal tend to think the worse and label everything as demonic or negative.

Regarding negative spirits:
Over the years, I have found that it is rare that truly negative or malicious spirits will take up residence in a home.  It is usually a very unhappy or mischevious human spirit.
Yes ,they can wreak an amazing amount of havoc in their own right, but its normally due to frustration. Spirits sometime act out due to anger and grief and just wanting to be acknowledged or heard.  I usually need to counsel the spirits as much, if not more than, the clients.  It can be a very emotional experience for both the living and the dead. 

I experienced a great example of why this meter can be so helpful during one of my house clearings.
I had been there for a few hours at this point and was able to confirm spirit activity and was connecting with the spirits in their house. The meter had been reading very low for most of the evening, between 1 and 2 and only spiked now and then and at the most up to a 8 or 9.  Yet, once I opened the portal.( A portal is an energetic doorway to the otherside for earth-bound spirits)  The meter remained in the highest numbers 14 and 15 for well over an hour.  We were just as amazed to see the needle  drop to a three at the exact moment that I closed the portal. We also, noticed the meter would read higher if a spirit was approaching or lower after it had crossed over. It was uncanny to see the meter reflect everything I was sensing.
I have to admit that it was some of the best evidence I had captured with the meter and it helped to validate my own feelings and abilities.
It also, allowed the clients to become active participants and to see proof that they were experiencing a real phenomena and none of us were crazy.*smiles* 

I now have a  whole new appreciation for this simple, yet amazing  tool.

I feel it is important to mention that the meter I own is a professional grade meter.  It does not register anything unless there is something there.  It does not randomly spike or give false readings.  Believe me, I have put it through many tests. It will sit at zero for hours if nothing is there.
I only wish it had a light. If I am investigatng in the dark, I use a rubberband to attach a small key-ring style light. It allows me to see the face of the meter without  creating too much light.

I hope you get to try out an EMF meter. I believe you will be happy with the results.

Remember to always have fun and to be respectful.
Spirits are just people that no longer have a body.*grins*  

Sweet dreams,
Angel

A Favorite Movie And Its Impact In My Life

Hello,

I just finished watching one of my favoirite movies, “Powder”.
http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Powder_(film)  .

I always, come away feeling very sad and yet hopeful.  It is an odd mixture of feelings. 

I am amazed at the underlying meanings and philosophies this movie conveys.
The movie cultivates a natural curiosity for our futures and how we connect to each other and everything around us.

I find one particular scene as being very powerful and helps me to connect  with my compassion and inner drive to help others.
The scene is when Jeff Goldburg extends his friendship and comforts Powder.  Its a very simple yet powerful moment. It shows the need for kindness and basic touch. That we all crave and need to be touched by another. Even if it is as simple as a hand laid on another in a show of compassion and caring.

This movie highlights the basic need for all of us to be accepted for who we are. To not be feared or hated just because we are different from what is considered “normal”.

I have always felt like I did not fit in and that I was different,even before I knew I was a psi.
Being a young child with abilites to sense things and the odd experiences I have had throughout my life, have created the feeling of separation.  Maybe, that is why I enjoy this movie so much and why it holds such meaning for me.

Powder is a symbol that we may identify with in our lives.

It is easy to replace the movie concept with something more specific that we identify with or feel strongly about.  Wether we see ourselves as Powder or one of the other roles is irrelevant.  It is a way to see ourselves and others in a new light and decide if we like who we have become. 
Do we embrace our differences and allow others to be treated with respect and tenderness or do we find hatred and cruelty as our behavior of choice?

Do we feel these things about one another or direct it at ourselves?
If others accept or approve of us or not, does not change the simple fact that we are who we are.

The question is: How do we treat ourselves? How do we come to grips with our own inner fears and insecurities?
 
I am beginning to relax and embrace that I am a psi vampire.  That no matter what I want or how hard I try to hide what I am,does not matter. I have to accept my own reality and allow myself to feel good about it. 
 
I believe that we all feel different in some way or another and that we do not fit into our own cultural norms. (Whatever,normal is.) *grins*
Knowing that,  helps me to accept these differences within myself. I believe, that is where communities can be of help and may offer needed support and connection.  The feeling that we are not alone and its ok to be who we were meant to be.

I hope you get a chance  to watch this wonderful movie and find it as inspirational as I have. *smiles*

Sweet dreams,
Angel

Odd Feelings And A Change In Plans

Salutations,

My husband and I had an interesting experience recently.

We had gone to the movies and saw Harry Potter. Which, was wonderful and also, sad. Knowing it is the last of the series.but, that is not what my post is about.*grins*

We left the movie theatre  and headed for a local chain restaurant that we have been to before.

We walk in the doors and instantly notice a very odd sensation. The energy in the whole place felt completely off. I am not sure how to describe it but, it was so thick and heavy with foreboding that it felt unbearable.

As we stood there we both noticed there were not many people and we were guessing it was due to how late it was.

I sense we are being watched and see two young women sitting at a table near the door. They are blatantly staring at my husband and I.  We just ignore them since, that happens sometimes. Not sure why but we notice people will stare sometimes. Would love to know why someday.*smiles*

Back to my tale.

We look at each other trying to figure out where the hostess is and if we should keep waiting or not. Meanwhile, we are still being stared at. Weird.

As we look around, a couple at a booth near us, tells us that they have not seen the hostess in quite some time and that it seems we will need to seat ourselves. 

We decide to go and find a table.  We locate a booth but, it has not been wiped off and I notice that most of the tables are in this state.Which, to me seems odd as well.  There are only three or four other tables with people sitting at them.  It strikes me as unusal that the tables are not wiped off. Im not sue why it bothers me so much. Just one more thing to add to the list of weirdness.*grins*

We sit for a few minutes and still do not see anyone except the bartender and a waitress at the other end of the restaurant.
I am getting the feeling that we need to leave and it intensifies as each second passes.  I cannot explain why I am feeling this way, just that it is getting stronger by the moment.

I ask my husband if we should go, he is not sure but, I can tell he is feeling the odd atmoshere as well.  I decide, to listen to my instincts and leave.  We get up and leave.

As we walk to the door, I look at the couple who advised us to seat ourselves and I say to them that we decided to go.
I really wanted to tell them to get out. That it felt wrong but, that sounded insane, even to me.*grins* 

We walked out into the warm summer night and as soon as we step though the entrance, I feel the sensation lift. Its as though a huge weight is lifted and that we somehow missed being involved in something horrible.

We get in the car and look at each other wondering what exactly is going on. My husband proceeds to describe what he felt and its pretty much the same things I experienced.

We drove to another location and were very relieved to walk into a perfectly normal atmosphere with no foreboding or intensity.

We are both perplexed as to what we just experienced. To say it was surreal would be an understatement.

I would not be surprised if we learn later,that something terrible happened that night. Not sure what, but I had the distinct feeling it would not be good.

I think, this is what people feel when, for no reason , they are compelled to cancel or take a different flight only to find out later that the plane they were meant to be on, crashed.

I sincerely hope that nothing occured at the restaurant but, it would not surprise me in the least.  I will watch the news to see if anything is reported.

I wish I could understand the reason for the way we felt. 
Why did we both experience such a strong sense of doom? As though a horrible event was about to be played out? I am a firm believer in that things happen for a reason, we just may not understand why.  This, I think, will be end up being just one more mystery in my life.*grins*

Sweet dreams, 

Angel

Sekhmet And The Cosmic Lost And Found

Good Evening,

I am inspired to share my story after reading my good friend  Cheshirecatman most recent posting. Synchronicity is truly an amazing thing. Thank you, Cheshirecatman.*grins*

My story actually began more than a month ago when I lost a very powerful and somewhat new crystal. I had it for less than 6 months when it went missing. The crystal was a Tangerine Lemurian Seed crystal.  Which, I found at a local metaphysical store. It was one of those, gotta have it, moments.

A Lemurian Seed Crystal,as I was told and what I found online about them, are crystals that were planted all over the earth by the Lemurians. An ancient people that are steeped in myth and lore.  These Seed crystals are meant to aid mankind and only be found when we are ready for them.  From what I understand, these have only been discovered in the last ten years or so.
They are of the quartz family and some can have an orange tint to them. Here are a few  links I found.
http://www.dynamicenergycrystalsonline.com/pages/Lemurian-Seed-Crystals.html 

http://seraphinite44.blogspot.com/2010/09/discovering-lemurian-crystals.html

The instant I held it in my hands ,I experienced what I call a wooshing sensation that started in my toes and moved up to the top of my head.  Its a very distinct feeling that can only be described as electrical in nature and for me, extremely rare.
I have owned many types of crystals and have never had this strong of a reaction ,as I had to this one. I never even heard of this type till the day I found it.

After purchasing this item (like I had a choice.*grins*)
I began connecting with it everyday.  To the point that it would travel with me to work each day.
 
Note to self. Never carry important items in a unzippered section of a purse. *grins*

The day I lost it was a sad day for me. 
I went to reach for it and felt my stomach drop.  My amazing crystal had dissappeared without a trace.  No clue when or how. This began my somewhat intensive search.
My husband can attest to my ability to focus in such a manner as to drive others a bit crazy. I will go over an area in such detail as to make a CSI team proud.*grins*

Yet, even after my detailed and exhaustive search,it still remained lost.  

I even dreamt it was in my vehicle. In my dream I saw my purse fall over and the crystal fall and end up in the back of my vehicle. My dream inspired me to conduct another CSI style sweep. 

On a side note.
During the initial search of my vehicle, I concluded that my dog has an amazing collection of assorted bones and treats. Which,seem to have ended up in every nook and crannie throughout my vehicle. I own a large SUV and for a dog that weighs only 20lbs, the amount of bones and small dog biscuits found, does not seem proportionate to his size. *smiles*

Back to my story*smiles*

During the quest for my lost crystal,my husband and I both found ourselves practically lying on the floor in my SUV with flashlights to be sure my dream was not a reality.  I believed it was a message but, then had to chalk it up to “wishful thinking” since we came up empty handed.

On a side note:

I have learned over the years that crystals will mysteriously get lost at times.  I have come to interpret these moments as:
The crystal is no longer something I need or someone else needs it more than I do. Its as though there are hidden agendas programmed into them . Some are meant for a lifetime and others for only a specific time span.
I decided that I need to face facts after a month of not finding it.

During the time it was lost, during a moment of feeling sad about losing it,I mentioned (out loud and in a half joking manner to Sekhmet) how I would much rather have lost  one of my very favorite pieces of jewelry ( a custom bracelet made out of lapis,freshwater pearls and austrian crystal) than losing my crystal.

I believe, Sekhmet heard me.

I was wearing my bracelet one evening and I  was walking from the kitchen to our frontroom, when I heard the sound of beads falling onto the hardwood floor.  It was my bracelet. The oddest part of this is that it had magnets for the clasp and would always just come apart if I snagged it. I did not catch it on anything yet, it broke.

I retrieved all the pieces from the floor and found that over half was still missing.  I could only find half the wire and barely a quarter of the beads.  Even the magnetic clasp was gone. I searched the whole floor yet,they were nowhere to be found. 
I was thinking I would have a friend re-string it, but with most of the beads gone that was not going to happen.

The next day, after work .

I was sitting in my car and decided to change the cd in my player.  I opened my leather cd case which, holds quite a few cds and as I was opening it..a cd went flying out.  I could not find it anywhere in the front and figured it must have somehow ended up in the back seat.  I had the thought of, “What if the cd fell out in order to show me where my crystal is?” I of course dismissed that thought as impossible. There was no way my crystal was in my truck.

I give up finding the cd and drive out of the parking lot.
I decide to take the opportunty in the bumper to bumper traffic to try one last time of locating my cd.  I reach back with my right arm into the backseat, directly behind my chair.  I cannot even look since I am on the road at this point.  As I blindly extend my arm, I feel my fingertips connect with material. I know instantly what it is.  It is the bag that I had carried my crystal in!  I grasp it and look at my long lost crystal now clutched in my hand.  I had found my crystal!
I am elated and also, a bit shocked.

I drove all the way home with the crystal held firmly in my hand. I think I was afraid to let go of it.*smiles*
I pull up in my driveway and get out and open the back door since I am curious as to where my cd is and exactly where my crystal was for all this time.  Lo and behold, the cd is sitting on the floor directly behind my seat and  in front of where I found the crystal.  I had to reach across the cd to find my crystal. 

Now, if the crystal had been way under the seat, I may have thought that we somehow missed it. Not, that I know how..but it would be more plausable.  The truth of the matter, is that the crystal was not under the seat.  It was laying against the bar that runs the width of the truck and is the bottom support for the bench seat.  It was barely, two inches in from the edge of the seat.   There is no way that we both could have missed it. 

I called my husband and told him what happened and he was as mystified as I was.

The voice in my head ..telling me the cd was to find the crystal,was odd as well.  Then it hit me.  The remark I made about the bracelet!  I only found it after the bracelet broke!

It all began to click.

I made that remark a few weeks back  and Sekhmet took me up on my deal.  She even made sure it was a true sacrifice by, not letting me recover all of the beads.  She knew I would have had it rebuilt and then it would not have been a true exchange.*smiles*
Sekhmet Held up her end of the deal,which I did not realize I had even made. I think she made sure I made the connection between the broken bracelet and finding the crystal. 

I have taken the lesson to heart and take it as proof that she listens to my thoughts and spoken words. Needless to say, I thanked her for bringing my crystal back to me.
I gladly, made the exchange and paid with the loss of my bracelet.  I got exactly what I wished for.
This taught me to be careful what I wish for and that words hold more power than we can imagine.

I know it could all be chalked up to one huge coincidence and nothing mystical about it.  But, if there is one thing I have learned in my life, is that there are no coincidences. *smiles*
I have had too many of these sort of “coincidences” to ever think they are that simple. There is always, a bigger picture.

I hope my experience helps to bring hope and a belief that we are not alone and that our prayers and wishes are heard.
We may not always, get what we want but, we do get what we need. Of course, this is all just my opinion.  You need to prove it to yourself and allow synchronicity to occur in your own life.  
The fact that Cheshirecatman had a similar experience and at almost the same time was just more proof of her influence in our lives. I was debating on sharing my experience and took his post as a sign for me to write about my own.

Coincidence?  I think not. *grins*

Sweet dreams,

Angel